Two Sides to Every Story

Posted on January 1st, 2010 | by Rohan |

I would never belittle those who genuinely suffer with personality disorder, but I sit here tonight genuinely perplexed as to the absolute diversity of feelings I have experienced.
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I have had the Best New Year’s Eve I have had in ages, a truly wonderful evening
I have had the most devastatingly emotional evening possible

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I have been surrounded all evening by the most wonderful people
I would have happily spent an evening alone in quiet reflection

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I am at utter peace with God, with the world, and can accept what is meant to be
I am so bitter at the harsh reality of what has happened to me

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Why would I want to start over again when I had all that I could ever want
I can embrace a new life with everything that I have to give

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All of the above are true to me tonight. Above all though, I remain so very humbled to be surrounded by such special people, which has restored to me a faith in humanity that maybe was in danger of being lost.

The special people with whom I have been with today deserve mention. Catriona and Dan make the most special couple and friends, warmth and genuine care abounding. Louisa has been mentioned on many occasions – my best and most trusted friend. I am so happy that she has found a special partner in Ollie – I wish you both so much love and happiness.

I don’t need to speak further about my mum, the warmest, most giving, and loving person I could wish to meet. I am so blessed to have her in my life always, and so pleased that she has also found a happiness so rich, and richly deserved.

A special thank you to the regulars and staff at the Selly Park Tavern – Kate and Kirstie have succeeded where most have failed recently, making me smile.

Whether I want it or not, there is a life ahead to fully embrace. Yes, I have lost the most special person I have ever met – the person who had the love and the patience to save me from driving myself into oblivion, who taught me not only to love others again but myself.

However, I owe it not only to Dani and my friends, but most importantly to myself, to cherish every moment that life gives me, and to face every challenge with purpose.

My life has changed forever. My life may be one of devastation now. My life will in time have changed for the better.

May 2010 bring you all every joy, happiness and love.

And remember that when faced with adversity, there are so many that are not afforded the opportunities that we may have … my proof is that you are reading this, and if you have the opportunity to read the internet, you are really not that badly off.